lovinginfall:stephrocksout:wordsofsam:

I AM - 
[] anorexic
[x] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[] drinking something
[] Under 100lbs
[] starving yourself
[] participating in a fast

PEOPLE -
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic

I WISH -
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[] I was pretty
[] I could stop being ana/mia

I LOVE -
[] feeling hungry
[] seeing a difference when fasting
[] shaking
[] being weak
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE 
[x] I am shorter than 5’4. 
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes. 
[x] I have many scars. 
[] I tan easily. 
[] I wish my hair was a different color. 
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. 
[] I have a tattoo. 
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. 
[] I wear glasses. 
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. 
[] I have more than 2 piercings. 
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears. 

FAMILY 
[x] I’ve run away from home. 
[x] I’ve been kicked out of the house. 
[x] My biological parents are together. 
[] I have a sibling less than one year old. 
[] I want to have kids someday. 
[] I’ve had children. 



RELATIONSHIPS 
[x] I’m single 
[] I’m in a relationship. 
[] I’m engaged. 
[] I’m married. 
[] I’ve gone on a blind date. 
[x] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper. 
[x] I miss someone right now. 
[x] I have a fear of abandonment. 
[] I’ve cheated in a relationship. 
[] I’ve gotten divorced 
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. 
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. 
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. 
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship. 

SEXUALITY 
[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex. 
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher. 
[x] I’ve been kissed in the rain. 
[] I’ve hugged a stranger. 
[x] I have kissed a stranger. 

HONESTY 
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t 
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t. 
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. 
[] I am keeping a secret from the world. 
[] I’ve cheated while playing a game. 
[] I’ve cheated on a test. 
[] I’ve been suspended from school. 

BAD TIMES 
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol. 
[x] I regularly drink. 
[x] I can’t swallow pills. 
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem 
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. 
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset. 
[] I take anti-depressants. 
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS. 
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it. 
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose. 
[] I’m addicted to self harm. 
[x] I’ve woken up crying 
[] I’ve lost weight 
[x] I’ve gained weight 
[x] My weight holds me back 
[x] Weight consumes me.

[] I’m at my thinnest 
[x] I’m at my biggest 
[] I’ve lost weight and kept it off 
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back 
[x] My weight affects my mood 
[] I weigh myself daily 

[] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me 
[] I thrive on compliments 
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size 
[] I feel happy when I’m hungry 
[x] I get depressed after I eat 

[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[x] I’ve thrown food away 
[] I’ve spit food out  
[] I’ve taken diet pills 
[] I’ve used laxatives 
[] I’ve purged 
[] I exercise

[] I exercise so I can eat 
[] I work out secretly 
[] I work out daily 
[] I exercise to counteract eating 
[x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion 

IVE DONE
[x] Weed 
[x] Cigarettes 
[x] Alcohol 
[] Diet pills 
[x] Pain killers 
[] Anti-depressants 
[] Ecstasy 
[] LSD 
[] Mushrooms 
[] Speed 
[] Cocaine 
[] Other 

[x] I keep my eating habits a secret 
[] I have a ED blog 
[] I look at thinspo 
[] I collect thinspo 
[] I condone pro-ana/mia sites 

[] I count calories 
[] I’ve had negative intake days 
[] I avoid food 
[x] I hate food 
[x] I love food 

[x] I wish I could have more control 
[x] Being thin is my top priority 
[x] I don’t want to get better 
[] I am in treatment 

[x] I’m doing this for me 
[] I’m doing this for someone

thewhiteoleander:honeysticks:prettypinkshoes:cowgirlblues:coolaccent:

1. What is something you are currently looking forward to?
the day I’ll be able to leave here and live in the US.

2. Are your lights on?
yes

3. What time did you wake up yesterday?
yesterday.. 12

4. Were you single your last birthday? 
no

5. Have you ever dyed your hair?
yes

6. How many people do you trust with everything?
not many

7. Do you get along with your siblings?
i have two older brothers (both moved out) that i get on well with. one of them annoys the shit out of me, but only when he stays at home.

8. Was your last kiss a mistake?
no, it was a goodbye.

9. What are you wearing right now?
black jeans, t-shirt with deer and antlers turning into trees, blanket.

10. Will you be in a relationship this year?
the year is pretty much over and so is my relationship.

11. What color are your bed sheets?
green

12. Have you lost a friend in the past year?
yes

13. Was he/she a good friend?
yeah, they were my best friends

14. How tall are you?
5’3

15. How long was your last phone conversation? When was it?
yesterday, maybe a minute

16. What did you do last night before you fell asleep?
tumblr/read

17. Do you find piercings on the opposite sex attractive?
idk it depends. I prefer tattoos <3

18. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes

19. Are you taller than the last person you kissed?
no

20. Is your hair curly or straight?
straight/wavy

21. Beach or mountains?
the sea

22. Are you ticklish?
yeah, sometimes

23. When did your last kiss that was a mistake take place?
mistake? “oh, excuse me, I accidentally fell on your lips”? no


25. Where is your favorite place in the world to be?
the ocean, or in a car at night

26. Do you have enemies?
no

27. Were you single in December 2008?
no

28. What are you doing today?
nothing

29. How many unread text messages did you have this morning?
0

30. Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive

31. If you could travel anywhere right now, where would it be?
america

32. What’s the longest amount of time you’ve been away from home for?
3-4 months, when I lived in England.

33. What do you think about before you fall asleep?
when I’m lying in my bed, I think about life and I think about death and neither one particularly appeals to me

34. Do you think you have pretty eyes?
yeah, quite, I suppose

35. Who have you spent time with directly after school lately?
I’m not in school

36. How many piercings do you have?
none (not even ears)

37. Tattoos?
I’d love some

38. Can you play the piano?
only the chorus of “Yesterday”

39. Name nine people that you miss?
J, Shriya, Amy, Benja, Sam, Steff, B, Audrey and.. idk

40. Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
time you enjoy wasting is not wasted

41. Are you in a bad mood?
indifferent

42. Did your night suck last night?
pretty much

43. Does everything happen for a reason?
I think we get pointers

44. Do you give people too many second chances?
yeah

45. Are you good at expressing how you feel?
idk

46. When was the last time you lost a friend?
earlier this year

47. Do you miss that person?
yeah

48. Do you like to swim?
sure

49. Has anyone every borrowed something from you and never returned it?
fuck yes

50. Why didn’t they return it?
idk, I want my movies back :(

51. When is your birthday?
feb 15th

52. Are you single?
yeah

53. Do you currently have a crush?
no

54. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
I don’t believe in marriage

55. Would you rather have a lot of friends or one best friend?
I’d love any at all

56. Out of your top ten best friends, is anyone not a virgin?
this is a ridiculous question

57. Do you trust people easily?
no

58. Do you fall for people quickly?
not anymore

59. Who is someone who can always make you happy when you’re upset?
shriya

60. Have you changed in the past year?
a lot

61. What is your favorite class this year?
don’t have any

62. Are you the type of person who tries to fix friendships or just lets them go?
I tried to fix it..

63. Sun or moon?
moon!

64. Does your best friend go to your school?
nope

65. Who is the most immature person you know?
uh.. none

66. Is there anyone you can’t say “hi” to when you see them in school?
I don’t fucking go to school

67. How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
until I’m ready

68. Have you ever kissed someone whose name you didn’t know?
nope

69. Is there someone who you wish you could say something to right now?
FFFFUUU

70. What would you say to that person?
FFFUUUU

71. Who did you last talk to?
dad

72. What are you listening to?
the smiths

73. Are you content with your life right now?
fuck no

74. Do you like deep conversations?
yeah

75. Do you have a running partner?
ugh running

76. Where was your best memory formed?
with my (ex) best friends

77. What are you doing next friday?
nothing

79. What are you currently thinking?
art and new york

80. Do you share a room with anyone?
no

81. What was something that you used to have that was only between you and one other person?
uh.. trust?

81. Do you collect anything?
books by Neil Gaiman, dreamcatchers