I went to bed extra early tonight (about 11pm) ‘cause I was going to Gothenburg and all, and I just couldn’t fall asleep. At midnight, I took sedatives. I guess about 2am I actually fell asleep. Then I woke up at 5. Couldn’t fall asleep. Been awake since. THE ONE TIME I ACTUALLY NEEDED SLEEP. I am so fucking tired (and outraged). But, whatever, I’m off to Gothenburg....
MY COMPUTER FUCKING SUCKS I WANT TO KILL IT I ALSO REALLY FUCKING WANT SUMMER
I have to use my dad's computer..
Mine just won’t work anymore. Tumblr doesn’t really work on here; I’m using Internet Explorer, lol. Can’t download chrome ‘cause dad things it will mess things up.. CAN YOU SAY STONE AGE But at least I can go on 8tracks. So expect a mix.
I have definitely ruled out Imovane.
My mother gave me her prescription sleeping pills. Or, yeah, she said I should try one and see.. Hopefully they’ll work.
suicide note generator! →
March 28, 2010 Listen Up Dumbfucks: Most people kill themselves because of a mental condition. This is true in my case too. The condition I suffer from is that I am not normal, I am not like everyone of you “sane” people. I am not normal in the sense that I am not like every other one of you brain-dead zombies. I can think. I can reason intelligently. I can observe and learn from life. I can...
So this morning I was getting ready to go into town, and my old friend Oliver called! He was in town and wanted to meet up, so we did :) Walked around town for a bit, went to H&M’s and some other stores, then we went to like 5 different cafés (they were all full) and finally ended up a this tiny cozy place (that we never go to because it’s the most expensive). I got a orange/cashew...
Listening to The Kills always makes me feel like...
nostalgicdreams: Seriously, walk down the street and listen to The Kills. You’re confidence +100 points. FUCK YES. I listen to The Kills when I work out. Alison Mosshart = goddess.
finally got my books
spending the day with Laurie Halse Anderson and Billie Holiday.
watched Kamikaze Girls for the first time in... →
mirages: mirages: … I watched it a few months ago and it’s very good indeed. I didn’t know that you had a “Japanese craze”, it’s kind of funny actually. I love it :3 And oh god yes, off and on when I was 12-16 or so, I was obsessed with Harajuku and the Japanese Lolita culture, almost bought a… I know what you mean. I’m still on my phase (I caught it pretty late), even if I’m not as...
I am... →
I am: Happy. Sad. A good friend. Adventurous. Shy. Confident. Procrastinating. A male. Bored. Anxious. Clumsy. Sociable. Always punctual. Selfish. Intelligent. Funny. A female. Sarcastic. Insecure. Sick. Beautiful. Articulate. Loud. Kind. Even tempered. Honest. Short. Tall. Medium height. Proud of myself. Loving. Witty. Down to earth. Outspoken. Determined. High maintenance. Pretty. Assertive....
watched Kamikaze Girls for the first time in...
mirages: alaskalee: Now I really want to watch more.. goddamnit, I thought I was over my Japanese craze. I wonder if my brother left any at home.. shit, they’re all imported anyway. Oops. watch KG here! I watched it a few months ago and it’s very good indeed. I didn’t know that you had a “Japanese craze”, it’s kind of funny actually. I love it :3 And oh god yes, off and on when I was...
watched Kamikaze Girls for the first time in...
Now I really want to watch more.. goddamnit, I thought I was over my Japanese craze. I wonder if my brother left any at home.. shit, they’re all imported anyway. Oops. watch KG here!
Home alone tonight.
I really want to make 8tracks mixes but the site won’t work :’( Anyway, my parents are gone for the evening, so I rented Veronika Decides To Die (the book is so good) and Taking Woodstock (YAY) to watch. So I’m pretty excited. Also chips + dip. Score. Wish I had someone to hang out with though…
I want my new books..
Today’s just one of those days where everything feels hopeless.
Tumblr worked for like 5 minutes.. I’m so sick of this :’( Oh well, I guess I’ll continue reading my Tarot book and maybe even try a spread. I don’t know. AH and I watched Inglourious Basterds, sooo gooood.
watching Inglourious Basterds
I woke up too late. I guess I’ll call tomorrow.. I have to go buy cigarettes now.
Oh my god.
I forgot how incredibly ridiculous Twilight was, hahah. Really, Stephanie Meyer is one twisted sister, it’s just like she wrote a book about her perfect little fantasy. Also, I don’t think it’s Kristen’s fault that she’s not good in this movie, I mean, her character is just so ridiculous and pathetic.. And she does a pretty good job at that, for what that’s...
I'm so sick of winter.
As soon as spring comes around I’m gonna paint my old skateboard and try to start skating again, it’s been years and I fucking miss it.
just ordered wintergirls & speak
yeah I can’t wait
going to bed
my computer’s being such an ass, it’s pissing me off. so, goodnight!
brokenlovelorn: Would you care if your last ex fell in love with someone else? Probably, mostly I’d just try to be happy for him. You woke up naked next to the last person you talked to on the phone, what would you say? omfg I would die. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed? Nothing anymore. Has anyone ever tried to ruin a relationship you were in? Yup. First person...
and today I managed to get into a pair of jeans that I haven’t been able to wear since before last summer. finally starting to lose some weight. gonna get a grip on myself once spring actually comes around, and start working out etc. anyway, yay
I went into town and finally got a big black loose-knit sweater, and also some new underwear (it’s really cute). I picked up some coffee bread and then I went to grandma’s, and we started talking about painting (‘cause she’s an artist, or used to be, she’s 90 years old now) and she gave me her old watercolours and sketchbook and papers (all about the colours and...
i’ve had so much wine and it’s not even 7pm god i wish it was summer
would post a link to my xanga but i don’t want any creeps ‘cause it’s like deepest darkest secrets eh
a room full of clouds: →
it wasn’t the first time i’ve lied about how i’m feeling, i do that every five minutes. but it was the first time i lied to you. i don’t even know, i just said it. “i was alright today.” i wasn’t alright today. today was worse than last night. in a way i hope you read this so you realise how bad it is. i never wanted to lie to you, i hate lying to you. it’s so difficult. i’m lying and hiding...
so um, who has xanga?
I made a new one after all these years, haha. I’m keeping it quite private though, but if you have one, tell me and I’ll add and then you’ll know what it is :) yeah?
think i might fall asleep
too much wine + anti-anxiety pills what even
anxietydreams: a lot of times, i feel really disgusting when i wake up in the morning. almost always.
WHY OH WHY
won’t gifs show up when I put them in posts they’re not even big size- or file-wise goddamnit.
i know more than 20 words in japanese.
apassingfeeling: including counting to 10~ i think i’ll try and teach myself some random words to keep busy. i like languages. ME TOO but just like just over 20. I learn a lot of words in different languages.. ..but I easily forget them, too.
got up fairly early
went into town with dad, got my first bottle of wine legally at the liquor store since I’ve turned 20, got a new flannel shirt, saw my ex best friend who still refuses to acknowledge my existence, came home, found my old music stand that I’m gonna use as an easel when I paint, made a garlic baguette and am about to try to set up skype (it won’t recognize my mic) so I can talk to...